Turning my mess into my message-
I know that the idea of "getting well" can seem daunting. Truthfully, if you are on this site, you are already a step ahead of where I was at the start of my journey. So, congratulations! It took almost losing my own life to make myself and my health a priority.
As a trauma survivor, I tried everything imaginable to find happiness and to feel whole in my life with little success. Medication after medication. I saw very little results to treat my PTSD, anxiety, depression, and severe cystic acne. After two hospitalizations due to suicidal ideation, two intensive outpatient programs, and countless hours of therapy, I was at my breaking point. I was tired to my core. I had tried everything and I was ready to give up, for real this time.
Well, almost everything...
You know what they say, "Healthy Body, Healthy Mind"
Well, I can assure you, I didn't believe it applied to me. But I knew I had to try this one last thing, for the sake of my loved ones...
My wellness journey has been a whirlwind to say the least. I lost 65 pounds, developed orthorexia from being too restrictive, I lost my period for quite some time along with half my hair. But it led to to healing in my relationship with food and my body. After I began loving my body well rather than hating it "better", my severe acne cleared (previously thought by dermatologists to have only been treatable by Accutane), I began using food as my medicine, I had energy I thought I had lost along with the trauma, and I began to heal- as a being.
"The doctor of the future will no longer treat the human frame with drugs, but rather will cure and prevent disease with nutrition" ~Thomas Edison
Health is a journey, not a destination.
Along the way, I found the person in me I thought I had lost so many years ago. I began to notice when the sun was shining. I began to think clearly, feel present in my life, calm my anxieties, learned how to regulate my mood, feel whole, and most importantly- alive.
That is what I want to share with you.
My journey has not been about weight loss, it has not been about finding perfection. It has been about learning to find peace and beauty in life, itself. And there is so much more life in you than you realize.
The thought that we are destined to live lives full of stress, constant dieting, anxiety, and exhaustion is nothing but an illusion. You deserve better. You are divine and your purpose is limitless. I am here to help make this truth your every day.